idon'tevenknow.

i've never been the girl to be part of a scene (let alone cause one), 

but the other day that changed.

being cussed out for the first time by your best friend,

not very fun.

although, i have no idea how it started.

i gave her what she wanted and walked away,

she still wasn't happy.

she cussed me out, 

i tried to ignore it.

when i couldn't i turned around and yelled at her.

she continued cussing me out,

so i left.

i booked it to my car trying to avoid all my friends who just wanted to be there for me.

yeah, that was the first time this has happened to me.

and i feel horrible.

because i'm a people pleaser.

i will do ANYTHING to make sure everyone is happy.

i will be two faced if i have to,

i will screw up my personal life if i have to,

i will hurt a friend if i have to,

i will sacrafice my happiness,

so that the people surrounding me are happy.

it made me feel like crap because i wanted to hang out with someone,

she didn't like it cause she wanted to hang out with them.

so i walked away to make her happy.

just replaying the whole thing over and over makes me feel pathetic.

i sacrafice everything for people and i'm not really treated well in return.

it sucks,

but i guess that's life.